The Final Countdown!!!


So somebody needs to pinch me. I just made my last college tuition payment…ever! Damn that felt good!

Even cooler, I just picked up my graduation cap,gown,tassel,Masters hood & stole. Looking like the manequin may not be the sexiest, or the coolest thing, but it’s worth it. It represents 2 years of hard work,sacrafice and inconvienece. Boom!

To commemorate, I also bought the mug to add to our college mug collection: Penn State, San Diego State and Long Beach State. Reppin!



“Vaguebooking”-Beachmail style.

So I just got this email in my inbox. While it’s kinda cool, I have to question what it is really for. Is just to acknowledge my 4.0 GPA? It seems so vague. Even the title cracks me up. Did Dr. Hill forget my name. “Hey there….buddy, pal, you…. nope. Outstanding Kinesiology major it is. LOL.
Hi outstanding graduating Kinesiology major,
The purpose of this note is to inform you that you will be formally recognized and honored at the Department of Kinesiology Graduate Colloquium at the Point (in the Pyramid) on Thursday, May 2nd.  There will be an social hour with food and beverages from 6-7 PM with the awards program starting at 7PM. 
I sincerely hope you will be able to attend to receive your award.  Your award will be presented from a faculty member in your option area.
Please contact me if you have any questions.
Dr. Hill
Grant Hill, Ph.D.
Graduate Coordinator
Department of Kinesiology
California State University, Long Beach 

Shit just got REAL!


I came home from work tonight and had this waiting for me. It was a letter and a brochure outlining all the details of my graduation. I immediately started tearing up. What a journey this has been. I NEVER thought this was a possibility for me. But here I am, holding this in my hand. Now, granted, I still have to finish my Thesis, defend it, etc, but knowing I don’t have to drive to school twice a week a sit in classes, do papers, projects, powerpoints, evals, etc. It feels good. It’s humbling. I know it sounds cheesy, but I made my dream a reality.

Now, the only question left is …..what is next for me?

The Journey Ahead

I am rapidly approaching a time in my life where  some pretty important decisions have to be made. How do I know which choice  is the right one?

Have you ever seen the movie Castaway, with Tom Hanks? Here is a clip of the ending, and offers an insight to how I feel.  Start at about 1:20 seconds in…

In keeping with this theme, the poem by Robert Frost – “The Road Not Taken” is another way I feel.

From another perspective: 

Bottom line is the semester is over and I’m now running down the home stretch of this journey. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel – so to speak. With that glorious light comes fear. I’m scared. What road is “the right one”. So many choices ( and changes) are in front of me.

I love my comfortable life of my home life  with my hubby, my job, friends and school. I love the consistency, the routine, familiarity of it all. With graduation looming on the horizon I’m faced with the expectation from many people that now I must go off and put my “education to good use.” Furthermore, when school ends in May, my hubby and I can move out of the hellishly boring suburb we had to move into to be closer to school, and finally buy a place closer to Downtown San Diego. To add more pressure, S and I “pulled the goalie” last year, and I honestly thought I would either be pregnant or have a baby upon graduation. Doesn’t look like that is happening anytime soon, but who knows.

So I guess I am feeling a little overwhelmed by the impending changes and expectations that I will encounter within the next 6 months. No more school, look for a new job that my family finally approves of, buy a house and possibly have a kid or be knocked up. No pressure.  Did I mention that I need to finish my thesis my mid-March?

I know that change is a good thing, and I am trying to be positive about it, but I just hate the pressure of it all. What if I can’t find a job? What if I can’t get pregnant? What if my Thesis sucks and I don’t graduate. My head is full of questions, worries and what-if’s.

The stress gets to me sometimes, but I just keep putting one foot in front of the other, trying to enjoy every moment from now until the day I graduate and recognize that this is a special time in my life, one that I am going to look back on quite fondly and think of the good times, and not the bad stuff.  My yoga practice has helped with the stress. I guess bending myself into a pretzel and sweating like a pig is helpful for these things!

Its a Vent-i,please!

So we are almost halfway done with this semester and I can safely say this is one of the worst semesters I have ever had-EVER! The root of my dissatisfaction stems from my growing disillusionment of the “system”, and apathetic, incompetent professors that make up a component of that system.

First, there is my Tuesday night professor. Class is scheduled from 7-9:45 every night, and we are lucky if he lectures for longer than an hour, maybe 70 minutes.  Have you seen gas prices lately? Sorry, buddy, but I am not driving 90 minutes one way to listen for 60 minutes to info you will post on Beachboard anyway, and then drive home 90 minutes at $20/gallon. Secondly, the amount of money I shell out to pay for this class makes me bitter and wanting to complain to the department chair or dean at his blatant disregard of  our shoddy return of investment of time and money for this “superior’ educational experience.

Secondly, my Thursday night professor… oh brother. The class has collectively dubbed her the “Most Incompetent Woman in the World”. She arrives late, take 20 minutes to prepare for class, spends most of the time showing videos on Youtube, or has us break up into groups to discuss things like ” What is the difference between Kinesiotherapy and Physical Therapy?” Last week we wasted over an hour in the computer lab working on graphing on Excel. Really? I went to grad school for this? To add insult to injury, this is a combo Undergrad /Grad level class. So I know the price I paid for this class —-and the quality education I am getting is ONE simple article critique above the work the Undergrads are doing. So basically I paid over twice the money the Undergrads paid for the class, and they get to do the same work we do, minus one simple assignment. I get so frustrated at the level of quality instruction is relation to the money we pay. I understand this isn’t Harvard or Princeton, but for crying out loud, is it too much to expect that at a Graduate level, that I get a quality education, that professor are aware of this,that they come prepared and challenge us accordingly? My last semester was such a great experience, that my desire to be at school and be open minded this semester has been challenging.

The Daily 49er recently published this article and I agree with the main point, and have felt that way about high school, junior college and University professors alike. My hubby is a high school administrator and it kills me to see the thick folders of staff that have  numerous write-ups and cant be fired because the power the Unions wield. SICK! I wish there were more stringent evaluations and feedback to which the student body can have a stronger voice in which to keep a teacher or demand a better experience.

Speaking of evals, a topic of discussion in my Thursday night class is that students cant wait to write the professors evals in a few weeks.  I truly wish I could just set up an meeting and be very frank with her about how dissatisfied, frustrated and disappointed many classmates are about this class. Part of me thinks she deserves to know and part of me just thinks in the grand scheme of things, it wont do a damn bit of good. I just need to put my head down and get through this semester. Plus, you never know if then the Prof takes it out in your grade…. and my GPA is not worth risking.

I guess I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening. 8 weeks left, 8 weeks. I can do it!

Randoms in my world


So a few days Scott and I went to P.F Changs and this is what my cookies had to say. I am hoping this is a good sign because I am really struggling with the whole Thesis thing…..I need motivation and inspiration….


Which I am getting neither of in my Physical and Motor Assessment class.  UGH. The material itself is and CAN BE really interesting, but sadly my initial excitement for this class was washed away and replaced with overwhelming boredom. Just gotta put my head down and plug through my professors boring and uninspiring lectures.


Inspiration was indeed found by my little study buddy one night. He loved picking out the letters and sounding out words. So incredibly cute, and wow, what a smarty pants.


So this week has been HOT AS HELL. We had 109 degrees here in parts of San Diego. And it’s mid-September!!!  I was getting in my car from school the other day and saw this crow sitting under a bush. I thought to myself “Don’t blame you buddy! Its too hot to fly”


S0 to prove a point, my class is so exciting to its students that they watch live TV (tennis matches) during lectures. I tried really hard to not burst out laughing!


If you have read earlier posts, I find beauty in strange places…. I just thought the structure looked cool with light and dark squares with the shadows dancing across it.

Fall 2012 First Day Details

So it came and went. My first day at CSULB for the Fall 2012 semester. Holy cow, I cannot believe how fast the first year flew, and Summer just passed in the blink of an eye.
I sat in class tonight cracking up at my professor, who I had last year. It’s another Motor Learning class, and I was excited to see that the required text bookimage

is one that I bought 2 years ago just because it looked interesting on Amazon. As predicted, he lectured for 55 minutes and let us go. Part of me is so grateful that I get home early on Tuesday nights, and the other part of me is so annoyed that I drive 80 minutes each way for such a short lecture. Would it be rude to ask if I could just Skype \Facetime the lectures? 😉
I giggled as I overheard excited freshmen chatter about the SWRC, how lost they were, how many hot girls\guys went to school and blunt declarations of their professors. ( My math prof is such a “bro”, I may even friend him on Facebook!) I must admit I missed those excited, overwhelmed and nervous feelings. This time last year I was a bundle of emotion… feels kinda nice being super chill about this semester.

That being said, I cannot wait for Thursday. I’m enrolled in a class designed for individuals with disabilities and we are assessing motor function and skills. Its a requirement for students enrolled in the Physical Therapy program, and considering I already work with kids with disabilities in the water, it’s going to be a great class. I will try to post pics.

Another thing I will try to do is update my “Chalkboard Chit Chat” category more frequently. The stuff these kids write is hysterical!

One side note, the Huntington Beach Core Power Yoga off Beach Blvd is the BOMB! I’m so excited to keep up my yoga practice while in school and use my CPY membership to its fullest potential. I am so excited that I held my Crow Pose for 5 seconds this week.

Victory! The cool thing with my membership is I can use 3 locations in OC, as well as my “home base” studio is San Diego. #Winning!

….and speaking of winning, check out the recently held Alumni game at CSULB featuring gold medalist Misty-May! Go Beach!